Current's views of a bridges belly

We will never be the same she said, tears welling up.And I thought she must really think of me as a good friend..Fronting a bottle of my favorite perfume tucked in a red ribbon she climbed on my bike for what was going to be the last time. " Why would things ever change ?" said I, nonchalant as ever. We rode through the buzzing Bombay streets, unaware of the drone, the drone that most of us had gotten used to and unconsciously tuned out.
I got her mail 5 months back. Said she was getting married and she likes the guy her folks found for her. Yet she went on an on about all the times we had shared. She was my friends girlfriend once. We had gone out on several double dates. Even when our relationships ended we would meet once in a couple of months , over a late night chai or to exchange some notes. Today I got her wedding pictures. And the only thought that came to my mind was "I should have married her ... atleast asked her out"
All the times you called me to meet and I made silly excuses, all those time you called out of the blue, all the times we chatted about everything under the sun and yet you held something back.... I'm sorry!

little did I know
that you were all I needed
little did I see
until you opened up my eyes
little did I know that one prayer could reach you
little did I know that you even cared

For dreams , times and what might have been...
Little did know little did I

5 Love languages

Over a chinese buffet
L: Hey... do you know about the 5 love languages
Me: Uhhh... Nope.. Shoot!
L : According to this book I read , there are 5 ways
* Words of Affirmation, when you say stuff,
* Quality Time, doing things together... undivided attention.blah blah
* Gifts, due to appreciation or just because
Me: He he... Hell! we call the 3rd materilistic...
> L gives out a I'll-Melt-U-with-my-eye-beams-glare, and then proceeds<
L : * Acts of Service : pick her up from the airport, doing stuff for the other person
* Physical Touch : holding hands,hugs,the whole 9 yards...
L : Why Do you have the silly smirk on your face...mister
Me: Naah! just figured out the perfect way for 5 luv languages made for a guy
L : what is it now ?
Me:P a service, touches you, could be a gift, and that time we spend sure has quality written all over it... Scoreee!! For the chatty LAP DANCERS! The pro's of LOooouew Language

PS: L or Laureen, She is my weird li'l friend,really really warm & confused buddy.For one she is always politically correct....even during a tet -a tet with closest of friends.I've seen her literally choke when having to use nigger or any other terms of color. But its fun to be around her, to see her going through her perpetual Quartert life crisis

Easter and Lent that followed

Things done this weekend...
Saturday :

1. Sleep...
2. Strawberries n chocolate was tried out.. the original whipped cream combo works better(Sil was wrong :) )
3. Some more sleep(Encore performance is always fun)
4. Friend frm jersey (J)called... he had emailed photos...
5. Checked photos... blood curdling , bone chilling screams were heard by my neighbours... My dear loveable bastud of a friend had sent me pictures of three mouth watering dishes that they had made for easter... Totally Jalao'd my ass... Duckin Ficks!
6. Went to penn masala concert... those boys sure can croon. Wish there were some pretty girls tho'
7. Chilled out at the grogg house... No money to buy anything... friend brought a bottomless pitcher. Helped him find the bottom...well sorta'
8. Came home....temperature dropped past 0 degrees in the night... had fun bundling up in blanky ...hands under bum et al
   

Sunday

1. Woke up early today...
2. Actually friends bugged the hell out of me n woke me up
3. Went to Affirmation of faith and fellowship for easter service . Lots of fun in these black churches... total entertainment with some nimble things doing their dances, kids doing skits, and a new minister who gave an interesting sermon.. who was real goood( so they say)
4. Service involved hugging a lot of strangers n saying I love you to people you didn't know... With my luck, I was surrounded by Guys n old ladies..On second thoughts , even though it was weird with the guys ,the old ladies n and one PYT's made it fun .
5. Came out couple of hours later.... feeling nice n happy .. and famished
6. Hunted for a Thai place.. couldn't find one...settled for Chinese buffet
7. lots of fish.. general chicken , teriyaki chicken... had 2 servings of desserts..shouldn't have had the second one.. could barely move
8. Rolled out of there into the car.. went on a loooooong drive
9. Just got back home.. got to do homework now.. so gonna take a nap first n then go to library...
10. O yea.. gave up orkut till the month end.. wanna see what else i can do with all that wasted time n flirting...
11. Will delete this crappy post in a bit.. but till then

To good food and funky company , doing it the Danish way...Bunden i vejret eller resten i håret

Fallen Angel

I recently figured out that I had been terribly smitten by someone I met on-line. Though I had earlier planned to fall for a doctor or architect , well some one who has an equally hectic professional life and understands what work load is all about.... I seem to have gone in for a teacher. Man , she sure can flavour my dreams n those daylight flights when there is a really boring class going on :P In reality , I am on the exact opposite end of the world and hence cant even wine or dine her. So gonna leave this one for destiny...But I have nicely worked out a rationalization for choosing a teacher.. Wanna hear it..


Well, ON PAPER: Remove the glasses, let down the hair and this stodgy intellectual turns into a sexually charged minx with strict discipline and perfect punctuation whatever the hell that means
BUT IN REALITY : The reason our parents never had sex is because they were too exhausted from corralling us all day long. Multiply that feeling by twenty five (or 40 as in some Indian schools) and that's how non-existent this chick's libido ill be on any given school night. Everything said n done , she outghta put up with the brat in me I guess.

Here's Michael Hutchenche reminding me soo much of you curls
To filling my heart & warming thoughts...Slainte!

Things I would've changed

"The tie , if I might suggest it, sir, a shade more tightly knotted. One aims at the perfect butterfly effect. If you will permit me-"
"What does it matter, Jeeves, at a time like this? Do you realise that Mr. Little's domestic happiness is hanging on the scale?"
"There is no time , sir, at which ties do not matter."

-Very good , Jeeves! P.G.Wodehouse

Tried a new thing for a while...STOP REFLECTING ,STOP THINKING, GO WITH THE FLOW!! Didn't look back....just kept hitting myself with one target after another.

Well for most bit it worked,I got my work done. I just postponed bunch of things that mattered but on the other side of the scales- I got excellent grades.

But, today at the last day of spring break...here in my balcony , looking at the stars I wonder do people remember the stars and the skies? Or do they remember the times they looked at them and the times when ...
There are millions of blazing starts.. burning themselves up... but does it really matter.The past 4 months have been a complete blur to me. Sure I have a bunch of photographs to tell where I had gone, but I really don't seem to have memories, of contexts, people, so called magic moments in life... didnt even notice a single one of them! Which leads me to believe the time spent was total utter hogwash!!

Lemme take an another shot at it.. with both the new and the old ways.
Here's to the holding on during blazes of glory ...Salut'

One of the most hilarious things I've heard in quite a while. Give li'l Becky a listen while I get over my exams..cheers!

Serindipity

Just happen to catch a movie today...Serendipity. Some one had told me ages ago to watch the flic. Had a tear after such a long time... Comfort was more like ti...comfort in the fact that there are more of them out there people like me.. ..the writers .. some audience who might have got influences.
Though our lives all we try to do is fit in. fit in with the clique at school... thru college.. collegues a t work.. fit in.. but some where deep inside ...every one of us hopes that we find some one in life... who already is built for us...

To cards of fate and a hopeful eye....Cheers~

Jog

Went in for an early morning jog with a bunch of runners. Got a whole bunch of strange sights to see. We had regular marathon runners(road bullies) running past us. Then there were the cyclists..all decked up in their cycling gear from head to toe(that's one thing I've seen about the Sods over here , when they get into anything, they don all possible accessories that might have possibly been invented for that activity). Wonder how many miles they cycle after all that natak? Then we had a bunch of old ladies n old dudes with modified bicycles ..sitting cosily in their seats and peddling away. Last but not the least there was a babe in a wheelchair... (overtaking us on the downhill) After new found humility ,I went till the lake ...sat there taking a bit of nature in and came back home.
Kept wondering all along about the chic on the wheelchair ... Man! she must be some fitness freak!
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Got me a new Maori pendant a twisted hook. Twist is for eternity and Hook is for luck... Lets see if the Sea smiles on me
PS: I have a strange feeling that this is not fish bone :-S Wonder if it is cow bone. Wonder if it is wot I think it is... is it bad to have around the neck ??? yelp!
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Amazing day today... Had tons of people complained of having to work inside while it was such a beautiful day outside. This is one thing I love about the fogies over there.They truly agonize if they have to let some some sun go to waste....quite refreshing to see people appreciate nature so much!

Junta

Dunno why I was suddenly missing most of the junta back home. Goofing off with the gang to go to Wellington or meeting the chaddis for some grub. It all used to be lotsa fun. I'm sure it still is. That bluddy J is gonna be lootofying tons of fun by now. But he is not getting the best deal. Why... coz he just doesnt get the importance of Vadapav or Tapri chinese.I'm gonna go meet him and probably teach him a thing or two....
Luck's biryani,
Rasoi thali,
Candies' salad,
Seekh kebab from Kurla or Moh Ali road
Firni from the same joint
Maddus' Anda Dosa!
Irani kheema pav,
India Coffee house scrambled eggs, Brownie Point brownies,
Gelattos from phoenix mills
Stickwali kulfi,
Fatkon chinese dinner,
Cheap chinese,
Khau galli Pav bhajis,
Hiranandani egg franky,
Airoli's secret panipuri joint
Carter Rd. Kebabwala...
Idly chilly from wotsthatnameofthatplace near ro's house
Shiv sagar's crispy meddu wadas n dosas

I oughta remind him wot these were for starters :) Teach him to appreciate life in the junk food lane

To Titbits and Manna from heavenly roadside .... Cheers~

I'm weird

Was talking to couple of blokes from back home (Viva Y!chat). As with guys ,the topic normally swerves from bikes to booze to Sex effortlessly. As the talk went on, everyone seemed to agree that if you hadn't done it for some time, you don't yearn for it that much. But if you are getting some action, you are bound to be more distracted and are going to want it more!
I've not been in the game for some time and so I agree with that. But the strange thing is that while the rant of the day was about bottoms and boobies... wot I really missed were the kisses... the warm fun ,passionate ones which make the world around u melt into a blurry blob!

I'm weird,right ?

I feel sad coz' I couldn't recall the last time I had one of those.We never realise it when its the last time , and miss out on savouring so much

Man ,I'm weird.
Wish i could be normal, be happy like the rest of the guys ,content with Pamela's and J'lo muse

To Last kisses and Carpe Diem...Salut

More Ramblings

Sham: See if we've got wot we r looking for...its just that we won’t value it coz v know we have it...n look for something which we don’t have

S: I always tend to do that

Max: yea

Max: Is it the reason why we yearn so much n search so much

S: when I know that this is mine...I loose my interest in it...n instead focus on something new

Max: same here

Max: wonder wot the future holds

S: will we learn n cherish something which we know is ours n not keep searching for impractical things

Max: will I find my soul mate…

Max: or will I settle for the average

Max: or will I be insane n lost forever!

S: I don’t MAX...I ask that to myself as well

S :nah the 3rd option is not quite possible with u....

Max :we are in the third option dodo! And insanity is getting bitter by the minute

Max :still madly yearning for the unknown

S: I know...it’s so true

My Worst Scar

Fate: 1. the supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events. 2. A final result or consequence; an outcome. Many cultures have different words to describe this idea... Kismet, Karma, Destiny, Moira, Fortune, Luck, etc...

Me across the world..My heart on the flip side... She says she went to find new work... She says she is joining in to a small company and the guy who has a thing for her just happens to be there... She says she is doing for the money and will make her family happy She says ..she says ...she says!

If one made ones' own destiny...I sure as hell would have scored the heartbreaks off .. clawed my off my worst scars!

Why do we...

Why do we...
Allow some one to grind our hearts so bas....shw is still there. Says she cant go on without talking to me.. her voice mail melted me... Every time I get my heart ripped out of my chest...n when she gives it into my hand... i feel hopeful again... atleast she gave it in my hand I say!

I am a great believer in Nature n science. But I, cant figure out , for the life of me(n i do mean it this time) as to why we go all crazy in love. The best decision makers can act like kids in a candy store when it comes to Love!C'mon Mamma Nature... get your act fixed...

How the greats have fallen
... to the whispers of a weep!

Hippocrite n Why me!

Wot ball??

Why do I hate Hippocrites
I mean..I have made peace with the fact that lot of weak people are like that... Too weak to stick to their words,their cause or their so called passion!or put their money where their mouth is

I have made peace with the fact that half of my friends are gonna date some one and marry some one exactly the opposite. They hav it ingrained that a spouse is not a friend but a Partner of sorts and hence needs to ahve different traits

I have made peace with the fact that people will not own up their mistakes and will take the easy way out .Their loss coz they will never grow

--- but why do I get this way when a new one pops up - I knew it was bound to happen !

Voices On MUTE

I'm frustrated ,
'coz people fail to get me..
However lucid I try and be!
Eternal right of the hasty, behind blinds
Or eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Laterz~

Why

Why are things soo beautiful.. especailly when you just you can't have them...
Why are humans wound up like this, with the yearn feeding itself till you lose pragmatism or your sanity
And why the hell are we not able to be wise and straight with the people we love and cherish... we have had enough practice at it with rest of the world!!!

Sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway. All you can then be is hollow!

Ramblings...

Luv Sham. She's always been there for me . My best friend n doppelgänger!

S : guess wot me gonna sing a song tonight....

M : o my god.... n the victims ?

S : hey I aint that bad...

M : he he ...

S : they've heard me before...n they want me to sing again..I ain’t that bad…am i

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M : Go try out lobster tonight

Sham :I get nice n swollen lips in return...hehe Allergies dude!

M: oooo.... that! can be a turn on!

Sham : oh u bet it is...

Sham : its the first thing I notice on a guy...hehe

M : Angelina...eat ur heart out... Sham.. eat ur prawn out

Sham : LOL

M : I got good lips.. at least one of my GF's used to be total fida on them

Sham : Gimme lobsters n watch!

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S: I’ve seen n been n felt love...n I don’t think it'll happen again

S: trust me it won’t

M: the butterflies might kick in late

M: about falling in love ..n that u know when u fall

M: it has not really been true ..not always atleast

S: yes I know...trust me...I’ve never felt like that ever except for once

S: n I know it feels like coming home....to the person u wanna c every moment in front of u..

M: the lost faces, the stupid smiles

S: even if u r dead tired after work..one smile from him...n I’ll just melt

M: n the day dreaming

S: totally!

Of Old Caves N Craves!

My frustration for the day started with finding a stupid Rs 100 note in a jacket i'd got from India.I sailed off to la la land thinking of all the different ways I could have spent it back home... Junk food, stupid CD's or this nice li'l place called Cafe Mondegar where we used to start off our weekend from, going clubbing or just chilling. Man I miss that place n the friends i used to bump into. To add to that...I got scraps from 3 different people who are going there this weekend... Talk about salt over u r wounds!Yeouch!

Halloween blues

Wish I cud afford to spend time in/on halloween..
>Sulks n goes back to books <

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ooo Man! It gets better... There are Halloween balls happening all around my Lab!Toga Parties , Playboy bunnies, Angels n Marlyn Monroes all around the place. Soo feel like ducking onto the loo, grabbing a roll of toilet paper...n sport a Mummy Returns to one of these parties... On a smaller scale... should probably blow up a rubber glove tuck it in my belt and go Moooo!
Here I am sitting and learning some old french guys equation for this french ladys exam and advancing her research! If I hav a time machine..I'm gonna go into the past, n stop neanderthal Man from settling in france... Go to scotland ..Kilts are weird but scotch is nice!!!

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Ahh! My pet page!
Happy that U, out there had a Blast!Halloween is well worth it. I did manage to get to a local watering hole before the last call! Had a Hulk and Ninja sitting on the neighbouring stools! Made friends with the bartender < those bartending hobby classes that I took helped>
Made a Mojo Mohawk ...thats wot they called the concoction that I suggested... Last round on the house and smiles on all 4 of our faces!

Happy Halloween Ya'll! Hope u guys had a rockin nite too!!!

Falling Flat

Been Orkutting a lot these days... I guess its the loss of belonging and the yearn for it that drives this madnes.. N guess wot .There is this gurl frm this community who is seems really really awesome.Soo awesome that for the first time EVER , I unloaded some cheesy Pick up lines
Sufficient to say ..my face hurt from falling flat